No need to bare the weight of your worries here...

I am starting to worry because I haven't been sleeping good lately.  I think I've been stressing myself out about everything.  The other night, which was the night of my last post I got sick and threw up everywhere.  I think it was something I ate though because I didn't have a fever or anything.  It was a rough night needless to say!  I am hoping I'm not that sick tonight but I have a bucket beside me just in case.  My stomach does feel crampy but I think it's just nerves or stress.  I don't know.  I mean today was kind of a busy day.  I had my internship and then went to class and took a mid-term which I was definitely stressing over a little bit.  Then after that I went to my parent's house for dinner and had a St. Patrick's day dinner with the family.  It's always hard to wind down after dinner with them but it usually doesn't take m this long.  I've just had so much on my mind lately.  It's kinda crazy.  Maybe I'm just trying to adjust to the whole internship experience.  It kinda sucks because I'm not getting paid and I think that makes me feel more crappy.  I've been applying for every job I see but still not getting any responses.  It all just sucks.  But at least I have an A so far in the class I am in!  Thank goodness for that! And I am still so very grateful for my family because they always know how to make me smile even if they don't realize how stressed out I am.

I applied for this one job today that requires knowledge of bookkeeping and quickbooks.  I'm not familiar with quickbooks at all but I need to research it and figure out how to use it.  I kinda lied to the employer and told them that I've used it before.  It can't be that hard right??  Who knows!  I at least have a good reference for these people so I might have a good chance at getting this job.  Cross your fingers!

btw, Happy St. Patrick's day! I am a bit Irish, the red hair kinda gives it away <3

Well I don't know what else to say for now.  I am getting sleepy though so maybe I'll finally get some sleep. Good night world!

Things seem brighter on the other side..

Well they say bad things happen in 3's and they sure as hell do.  First I lose my job, then I wreck my car, and then my laptop crashes.  That is my excuse for not blogging since my last post.  I had to get my laptop fixed after it got some viruses on it so now I am back in action!  Oh AND I got my car back as well so life is good... now all I need is a freakin job.


The other night my mom and I rented that movie Up In The Air with George Clooney.  George plays a man that travels across the country who has to fire people from their jobs.  The movie is great because instead of actors they used real people who have been laid off.  I wish I could have been in the movie!  It was weird beceause I thought I'd cry the whole time watching the movie but I didn't.  I was able to suck it up because I think I've ran out of tears.  I've been applying for SO many jobs but I am not having any luck.  There's a new mall in Hampton now so I've even been applying for part-time jobs but you gotta imagine how many other people are applying for those jobs.  I just wish I could at least get an interview because I need more practice.  I also desperately need some money.  Not only for the bills and mortgage payments but for myself.  I need money for gas and other things.  This could seriously be the worst time of my life.  I hate asking my parents for money but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do and half the time they offer anyway. Oh well.


The last couple of weeks I have been doing an internship at the Center for Child and Family Services in Hampton.  It's been pretty interesting so far.  I work mainly on the credit counseling side so I get to see situations that are a whole lot worse than mine.  At least I don't have children to worry about or a butt load of credit card debt.  I am constantly trying to be optimistic.  It's easier now that the weather has been warmer.  I love, love, love this time of year.  We set the clocks forward this weekend so that means longer days, warm weather, and summer is coming soooooon!


I don't know what else to do but continue to apply for jobs.  I'm doing the best I can, that's what I keep telling myself whether I believe it or not.


And today DMB played a song called Big Eyed Fish which they haven't played in aa couple of years.  It's such a beautiful song and they opened up a show in Europe with that and followed it with Bartender.  Now that is a way to open a show!!! I can't wait to see them again this summer, just wish I could afford it.